Staggering.

I never thought I'll feel insecure when it comes to us.

So when it strikes me, I start to panic. What if I lose you.

I know, guys aren't supposed to be so emotional and stuff.

I really don't mean to hurt you by saying that particular line.

I'm sorry.

Yup, I would.

I'll give instead.

new year's coming soon. lots of food to eat and money to get.



everyone has their downs.
everyone needs a little support now and then.
so why not just accept me.



trying, "wellooo?"-ing, smiling at our happy moments whenever i feel down.
don't worry, you're not alone.
because someone else within the two of us seems to feel more emotionally attached to you.


"...but the doer takes pride in. And finds joy. And bliss."

The Silent Cartographer.

I got Halo Anniversary! whoaaa. me and cheeseboy tried to get the banana skull. it's impossible. until the wise chelvin went like, "hey, enough of this incompetence," then he grenade jumped and WHOAAAAA we got the skull! but it's kinda senseless how we tried so many times and failed.

not that things in life recently aren't senseless anyways.

having an upset stomachache now. :/ idk why.

should I delete this blog? or lock it away forever?



"No, I think we're just getting started."

nineteen.

no matter what it is, don't worry about it because it'll pass soon enough for you. :)
at times I might not be able to be physically there for you but you should know I'm readily available to talk to. I've said that umpteen times.

it's during these times when you feel like you don't belong anywhere, your presence is of no significance anymore.
It's a journey all by myself.
yet I'm worried; still caring about making people around me happy.

my life just went rogue.

nevertheless perhaps it's for the better; from a different perspective I perceive it as another opportunity to get much better results.

there'll be another time.

:D

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
Shaking Steven - Because I Love You
Michael Jackson - Black or White
Maroon 5 - Out Of Goodbyes
Usher - MAKE LOVE In This Club
Paramore - Fences
omg you won't believe this. Mister - KARA

(I skipped the chinese songs cos it's tiresome to type chinese here. )

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
That's a very good question. I dunno.
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
"But it hasn't made any difference to any of our religions. Faith is quite separate."
4) What do you think about most?
Her.
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
Ya, eh apparently, US trying to develop full face helmets. LOL
6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
With.
7) What's your strangest talent?
I can wiggle my eyebrows like the kid in the Cadbury advertisement.
8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
Girls have smaller feet; boys have bigger feet.
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
nope.
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
not too long ago.
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
the sleep-halfway-then-suddenly-fall-into-nowhere feeling. and butterflies and moths.
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
nope.
13) What's your religion?
freethinker.
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
around with her or friends!
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
behind?
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
I dunno... Guns N Roses? HAHA.
17) What was the last lie you told?
I'm sleeping now.
18) Do you believe in karma?
maybe.
19) What does your URL mean?
It means that your excrement can illuminate in the absence of light.
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
tickles.
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
errrrr. Miranda Kerr? is she a celebrity? Anne Hathaway!
22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
nope!
23) How do you vent your anger?
I pour salt on slugs, then laugh menacingly.
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
toys, stamps, movie stubs.
25) Do you perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
On the phone!
26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
Nope.
27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
Hate: the sound my water bottle makes when it's cold.
Love: Her voice when she's half asleep!
28) What's your biggest "what if"?
What if my surname is Munch instead of Chew? OMG I'M DELIRIOUS
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
ghosts, not so much. aliens, DEFINITELY.
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
Right: My last draft for my I&R, with a Rubik's cube on it.
Left: Phone.
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
mostly nitrogen, actually. and a slight tinge of oxygen and carbon dioxide, and a very minute scent of rare gases. OH YA AND WATER VAPOUR
32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
The Library on Installation 04
33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
East Coast!
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Rebecca Black.
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
7. sometimes I use 5.
36) Define: Art.
crayons.
37) Do you believe in luck?
maybe.
38) What's the weather like right now?
windy.
39) What time is it?
2:14am. whoa.
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
The last time I crashed, my Warthog went down the cliff. then i revert back to last checkpoint.
41) What was the last book you read?
Glasslands - Karen Traviss
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
actually, I like Shell's smell. D:
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Chewbear.
44) What was the last movie you saw?
In Time!
45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
Was running on an escalator, then the sharp edges jabbed my knee. then I lifted it up, but I couldn't! My leg was trapped! then my brother went to press the Stop button, but never did he realise the button he pressed was the self-destruction button. Violent explosion occurs, panic ensues.
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
nope. But if I ever do, that butterfly will be one sad butterfly.
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
nope.
48) What's your sexual orientation?
Landscape.
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Rumor has it that I have 2 belly buttons, and eyes capable of melting iron.
50) Do you believe in magic?
Nope. it's science.
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
no point hating someone who's dead.
52) What is your astrological sign?
Taurus.
53) Do you save money or spend it?
Save then spend HAHA!
54) What's the last thing you purchased?
Lor mee.
55) Love or lust?
Love.
56) In a relationship?
Yes!
57) How many relationships have you had?
1.
58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
only if I dissect it.
59) Where were you yesterday?
Orchard.
60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
Patrick Star. I'm going on a spongebob cruise YAY!!!
61) Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope.
62) What's your favorite animal?
Wolf.
63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
my twin belly buttons.
64) Where is your best friend?
I would say Serangoon, but he'll want me to say he's in some middle east country shooting some bad guys.
65) Spit or swallow?(;
Chew.
66) What is your heritage?
I'm the 238748327413rd descendant of a dinosaur called Bob Chew.
67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Playing.
68) What do you think is Satan's last name?
Doe.
69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
wha?
70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
maybe not.
71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
wake up. it's a dream! okay I'll save the dog, but it'll have to explain the matter to my boss. If boss doesn't buy it, then I'll throw the boss into the canal.
72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
a) I'd tell my parents and her.
b) Spend them with my family and her. and my friends.
c) yup.
73) You can only have one of these things:
Trust.
74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
I Just Had Sex.
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
:)
76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
compromising and giving.
77) How can I win your heart?
Be yourself, be loving.
78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
yes.
79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
to cut the red wire. because red means danger.
80) What size shoes do you where?
medium size.
81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
"Sent off, with a bang."
82) What is your favorite word?
don't have.
83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word:heart.
red heart.
84) What is a saying you say a lot?
when you drink the water, you must remember that the water comes from the kettle. which comes from the tap. so, you must turn the tap to drink water.
85) What's the last song you listened to?
NEVER GONNA BE ALONE
86) Basic question: what's your favorite color/colors?
Maroon. Blue. Grey. Black. Purple.
87) What is your current desktop picture?
Tip of the Spear.
88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
some bad guy.
89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
Who are you working for.
90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
go back to sleep.
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
to fly and have super intelligence and have super strength and super speed and can learn hyperbeam and can shapeshift and xray vision and laser eyes and telekinetic powers. well maybe I ate alot of those vegetables...
92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
>)
93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
:(
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
no one!
95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
Middle East, to help ongbear kill some bad guys.
96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
nope.
97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
nope.
98) Ever been on a plane?
Yup.
99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
on the count of 3, JUMP.
100) Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr.
dont have.

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I love 2 eat.

HUH?

CYLON!

had the time of my life at USS with Quinie. <3 the queues dont take long because the ever-adorable pigalim is there. :)

time was well spent at the Battlestar Galactica! Sat through the Cylon ride thrice and the human ride twice. that's unfathomable, given that countless casualties have resulted since the opening of the attraction. just kidding.

the pizzas there were huge. like ginormous. and then they serve us a strawberry pudding which tastes like strawberry and cheesecake. only that the cheesecake is melted, and tastes like milk. which is revolting.

I wish my family will get a chance to visit there too! now i'm suddenly very looking forward to the cruise. :D it's a SPONGEBOB-THEMED CRUISE!!! my brother is excited because the brochure says, "have your breakfast with Spongebob Squarepants and Patrick Star!" hahaha. maybe we'll have spongbob pillows and spongebob towels in the cruise! and spongebob cups and plates, and maybe the cabin is shaped like an pineapple. okay that's exaggerating.

and I'll like to acknowledge the fact that I have the most loving, most enduring and tolerant mother anyone can have. No one can ever love me as much as she does.

But I have failed you.

and then for the wise intellects pondering and questioning over the purpose of the above text, and critical enough to ask what right do I have to make her feel upset, well I hereby give you an answer.

I dont.

And I love you, Mama.